I am a woman of deep conviction
Named ‘too sensitive’ by my dad in the face of death and negative experiences, my feelings were an unwelcomed disruption to the ‘house of denial’ I was raised in. Responses to painful crises (or flat out silence) left me feeling crazy.
Until I became my first client in my search and discovery of Truth.
As a deep hearted and sensitive little girl, I spoke truth over and over again to the adults around me… “something is wrong”. Left swimming in a sea of denial, I grew to doubt my feelings.
Evil hates truth speakers.
I did and can sometimes still ignore my sensitivity to avoid being a burden and opt instead to hide my ‘crazy’ heart. But that has and continues to be a space where I can choose kindness and blessing for my need for Jesus in my weakness.
It was not until I joined a community of friends and began telling my story that I became aware of evil’s attempts to name my glory as “too sensitive” and “dangerous”. The gift of my sensitivity and my identity were exposed as I began to name my truth: I am sensitive and can sometimes feel things for others more deeply than they do themselves. And on the flip side, I am deeply sensitive to the Spirit of God. I can bless both my depravity and my dignity.
I have always had and still have a heart that feels deeply. The holy spirit resides there. I am sensitive both to good and evil because of His presence and not my own. It makes perfect sense why evil comes for me – I am dangerous to his plan to thwart God’s glory in me and others.
I hope you too get to tell your story in a safe environment where every story is welcomed without judgment. It is refreshing, enlightening and it is the one thing I have done that has invited my heart to give and receive God’s truth in the intimate presence of Love.
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